My Dead Dad & the CIA
For the last few months, Iāve been going through a meditation protocol.
Itās called The Gateway, and I discovered it during a deep dive into some CIA-related affairs.
(You know how those special interests go.)
In the 1980s, the CIA got in touch with the Monroe Institute after hearing about a meditation/hypnosis protocol involving different frequencies in each ear. The idea was to encourage the brain to āmeet in the middleā and sync the frequencies, putting it into an operational wavelength thatā¦
ā¦well, you know. Enhances abilities like remote viewing, telepathy, extradimensional awareness, and more.
Wild, right? Thatās exactly why I was drawn to it. Also, I believe the CIA stopped researching it after determining it to be legitimate but not immediately measurable or observably effectiveāclassic.
But Iām not trying to fight a Cold War or spy on anyone. I just wondered what might happen if I disciplined myself to work through the tapes.
There are dozens of them, and as someone incredibly susceptible to hypnosis and neurolinguistic programming, it came naturally to move through the first 23. I developed a process for getting my brain into the different levels of focus described in the tapes, learning to drop deep into my mind and relax my body within minutes.
On the 24th tape, I experienced what I can only describe as bliss. It couldnāt have come at a better timeāI was in crisis, using meditation to escape my anxiety and refocus. While I thought I was simply using a tool, I didnāt expect to interact with my dead father.
Heād shown up a few times before as I trained my brain, but those interactions were brief, though restorative. In one session, while practicing remote viewing, I saw a memory of his with such omnipresence that it sparked immense compassionāfor him, for me, for everyone. He sent me a message that became my mantra over the last few months:
āIt aināt over ātil itās over, and it aināt ever over.ā
But Tape 24? Thatās when I had real, direct interactions with him. The messages came through with such clarity that they made me cry. (Side note: Isnāt it weird to cry with your eyes closed? Such a strange sensory experience. Is it just me?)
My father and I had an incredibly fraught relationshipāneurodivergence on both sides, family secrets I didnāt know, alcoholism, and more. It wasnāt in the stars for us to have a close relationship while he was alive. But now, unburdened by his body and brain, heās revealing things Iāve needed to know for decades.
If I were less confident in my spirituality, I might worry: What if this is just my brain telling me what I want to hear? What if Iām just talking to myself like a straight-up lunatic?
But I accepted a long time ago that I believe what I was taught as a child, which has been confirmed by science and experience hundreds of times:
If we are all made up of God, does it matter whether I am telling myself what I need to hear or God is doing the telling? Arenāt we the same substance? Wouldnāt the messages be the same?
I hear people say they ācanāt meditateā or that theyāve ātried but arenāt good at it.ā The common misconceptions about what meditation is cause so much of this perceived inability.
If you meditate by doing the dishesāfully noticing the water, smelling the soap, perceiving the food that once sat on the plate, and diligently preparing the coffee cup for the next dayāyouāve meditated. Intentional awareness of what youāre doing and where you are is meditation.
If you need direction and structure, though, I highly recommend trying the Gateway tapes. Theyāre available online for free. If you decide to try them, Iād love to hear about your experienceāreply to this email or comment on the post, and letās talk about it!
Xoxo,
M.
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